The Math of God's Love

I haven't had the best week, in fact a lot of things changed this week: 1. i made the decision to move out of my grandparents house for good 2. ended an unhealthy relationship 3. made the decision to not date for the next six months in order to focus on myself and school. However there was one thing that didn't change this week, how much God loves me.
I am a nerd and I have a minor in mathematics for no reason. So it was only a matter of time before I came up with a numerical answer to how much God loves us.
In math there are constants and variables. Constants are unchanging and constant while variables are constantly changing.
I grew up in a church where the amount of love that God had for me would change depending on my actions. In this case God's love was a variable. Now I know that God's love is a constant.
Time for math!!
Example 1 : Growing up with God's love being a variable
A= number of cookies snuck from the cookies jar in a week
B= number of times I picked on my little sister week
C= number of times I lied about having homework
D= number of times I didn't tell someone about Jesus
G= God's love for me

(A+B+C)^2D=G
so if:
- i took 4 cookies
-picked on my sister 20 times
-lied about homework 3 times
-didn't evangelize 10 times

(4+20+3)^2(10)=G
(27)^2(10)=G
(729)(10)=G
7290=G

*I know that that is a big number but the goal is to be as close to 0 as possible

Example 2: My life now with God's love as a variable
A= number of times I skipped class in a week
B= number of days I didn't read my Bible
C= number of times I curse in a week
D= number of times I didn't evangelize in a week
E= number of times I failed to love my neighbor in a week
G= God's love for me

(A+B+C)^2DE^3=G

so if:
i skipped class 2 times
didn't read my bible at all
cursed 100 times
didn't evangelize 50 times
neglected to love my neighbor 12 times
(2+7+100)^2(50)(12)^3=G
(109)^2(50)(12)^3=G
(11881)(50)(1728)=G
1.0265184x10^9=G

*according to this God shouldn't even know that I exist

Example 3: Growing up with God's love as a constant

A= number of cookies snuck from the cookies jar in a week
B= number of times I picked on my little sister week
C= number of times I lied about having homework
D= number of times I didn't tell someone about Jesus
G= God's love for me

G≥ (A+B+C)^2D
G≥ (4+20+3)^2(10)
G≥(729)(10)
G≥ 7290

Example 4
G ≥(A+B+C)^2DE^3
G≥(2+7+100)^2(50)(12)^3
G≥(11881)(50)(1728)
G≥1.0265184x10^9

So why ≥ and not =, it is simple; no matter what we do God loves us, "Only let's live in a way that is consistent with whatever level we have reached" (Phillipians 3:16) and we will never fully understand the depth of her love for us.

For those of you who don't like/ aren't good at math what I'm trying to say is that no matter what we do and no matter what we are going through God's love is constant and unchanging.

go in PEACE. live PEACE. be PEACE.

The "Perfect" Church Part 2

Today I learned that more people read my blog than I realized. I learned this because I got a call from the not so happy pastor of the "mega" church I attended last summer. He wasn't very please with my conclusions about mega churches (I guess the truth hurts even when you are rich). 

He told me to think about what I would do if one day I was the pastor at a mega church that had billions of dollars in the bank and that my salary was millions of dollars. 

Challenge accepted.

Here is the list (not in any particular order) of what I would do if I had that much money at my disposal.

1. I would pay off my student loans and my credit card debt

2. I would give the members of the congregation who had debt money to pay of their debt

3. I would give members of the local community money to pay off their debt

4. I would end world hunger (pretty sure if all the churches that have an insane amount of money coming in every week worked together world hunger would no longer be a problem)

5. Build a house (not a mansion) for the homeless people in the local community

6. Donate money and supplies to local food pantries, soup kitchens, and at least until the houses are built homeless shelters

7. Make sure that everyone in the community has enough food, heat, etc (pretty much enough of the basics)

8. Fund health clinics in the developing world with a focus on maternal and children's health

9. Lobby congress to fix the education system in this country and eventually around the world

10. Make sure everyone in the developing world had access to health care and clean water

11. Buy shoes for every child in Africa via Tom's

12. Lobby congress to fis the screwed up health care system in this country

13. Maybe buy myself a new car

14. Maybe buy myself a house

15. Maybe buy myself Louis Vinton luggage (because that is what every pastor needs)

Please note that I didn't mention the color of the carpet, building a church addition that isn't needed and wasting money on a sound system that no one knows how to use.

The "Perfect" Church

There are a few things in life that frustrate me.  Ok, there are a lot of things in life that frustrate me. Recently one thing in particular has been very frustrating (you may or may not be aware of the fact that  I want to go to seminary and become a pastor one day); too many people make the assumption that I want a mega church that has millions if not billions of dollars in the bank.
I'm saying that I don't want to be the pastor at a mega church and I'm saying that I don't want to be a pastor at a church that is financially secure. What people don't seem to understand and I what I find frustrating is that I don't want to be a pastor because of the salary.
I would rather have a congregation of homeless people who truly love God, a budget of $0 a month, a salary of $0 a month than a mega church full of people who live in mansions, a budget of millions of dollars a month, and salary of millions of dollars a month, and people who really don't know what it means to be in a relationship with God because they are to busy strengthening their relationship with money.
I grew up in a small church that for being a small church has an impressive budget,  but people don't know what it is like to live in love. I briefly attended one of the "mega" churches back home, but I didn't form relationships with people.
For me the "perfect" church is comprised of people who let their lights shine so bright sunglasses are a necessity when being in the same room together. The "perfect"church is comprised of people who don't criticize others just because they receive some sort of welfare. The "perfect" church is comprised of people who strive spread the love of Jesus like peanut butter like I do on bread (all the way to the edge of the bread) or in this case the ends of the earth. The "perfect" church sees a need in the community and they fix it, no one thinks about replacing the church carpet (which probably doesn't need to be replaced) they just see a hungry family and buy them food.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that for me the "perfect" church is comprised of people who have made the decision to be peanut butter in a world made of bread.


go in PEACE. live PEACE. be PEACE.