I woke up early today, 7 AM
to be exact. Those of you know me well know that I hate mornings and that I try
to avoid them as much as possible. But I wanted to be up early today, I wanted
to see if the SCOTUS was going to vote no for human rights two days in a row.
Thankfully love won today. DOMA was ruled unconstitutional and PROP8 was
dismissed. I had tears of joy streaming down my face, not only because of my
own sexuality but because my great-uncle just might be able to marry his
partner of 50 years. I hummed O Come O
Come Emmanuel as I did dishes and drank my coffee.
My tears of joy turned to tears of sadness in a matter of
seconds. I found myself sitting at my kitchen table just staring at friends FB
status. The news was heart breaking, Miguel, a member of the CCC family died in
his sleep last night. I had a brief moment of denial it felt like it was just
yesterday that he was making me a grilled cheese in the Bistro and talking to
me about my senior thesis. I made myself
a grilled cheese for lunch and watched as CCC student, staff, faculty, and alum
posted heart felt status about Miguel.
As I moved from tears of joy to tears of sadness I
found myself reciting the words of some of the psalmists:
For your
steadfast love is as high as the heavens; your
faithfulness extends to the clouds.
Be exalted, O God,
exalted, O God, above the heavens. Let your glory be over all the earth. 57:10-11
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I; for you
are my refuge, a strong tower against
the enemy. 61:2-3
Be to me a rock of refuge, a strong fortress to save me, for you are my
rock and my fortress. 71:3
This morning my tears of joy turned to tears of sadness and my
thoughts became prayers of hope.
R.I.P Miguel CCC will never
be the same. I still don’t know if it is taco Tuesday or taco Thursday but I do
that it isn’t taco Monday, Wednesday, or Friday. Thank-you so much for
countless grilled cheeses over four years and for all the memories.
